Everybody lies. – House, MD
So goes Gregory House’s immortal line. The show ended years ago, and if you can’t remember anything else about it, I am sure you can still remember that line.
People have different reasons for lying. Some lies benefit the liar, some lies benefit the one being lied to. The latter are made to keep you from harm and I take no issue with this. But for people to willfully deceive you for their own gain, now that’s a big no in my book.
In my dealings with everyone (OK, almost everyone), I try to be as honest as I can. This is because I want to attract honest people to my life. You know, be the change you want to see blah blah. I want to be with kind and honest people so I try to be kind and honest too. Sometimes I can be so honest to the point of being marginally brutal and I know that it’s also not very good to take it to the extreme. But wouldn’t you rather be hurt by the truth than be comforted with a lie and live ignorantly?
Ignorance is bliss? Maybe, but only for the short term. For how long can you stay ignorant? Can you live forever with the wool over your eyes, thinking everything is fine and dandy? Can you really live a good and happy life based on false hopes, based on things that are not true?
At work, I am called the “intelligence officer” of the group. While some of my colleagues jokingly call me “stalker” (long story about my office crush), my boss thinks otherwise, thank you very much. Actually, I take offense in being called stalker. A stalker harasses others, I don’t. I get my information without bothering or hurting anybody in the process or breaking any law. I guess this is my mutant superpower or something. I cannot read minds but I can look at random things and find patterns, connections and inconsistencies.
Information is everywhere and in this day and age, you also have the tools you need to work with information. All you need to bring to the table is a bit of patience and a huge amount of creativity in finding what you need. I am unleashing my inner Sherlock bit by bit. I was able to dig up a treasure chest of hidden information in less than 48 hours. I found patterns and put the pieces together until I can see the bigger picture. It feels good..it feels liberating when you discover the truth for yourself, especially if others tried so hard to hide things from you. I am mighty proud of this and I think I deserve a job at Langley, Virginia
Kidding aside, now that I have this mother load of information, what do I do with it? Do I “present it to court”? Do I keep it to myself? Should I pull an Irene Adler? Right now, I am really not sure. I know a lot of things now but I don’t want to use them as ammunition to hurt others. For now, I think taking the high road is the more attractive option. Yes, people have lied to me, but that doesn’t mean I need to act as immature and crappy as them. Just because I’ve been deceived doesn’t mean I have to stoop to lower levels and hurt them too. I have my values and I always try to stick with them, no matter how hard. And believe me, a few days ago, it was SO DAMN HARD to be nice.
I owe Endre a huge apology for he became my emotional punching bag at the height of my “pissed off period”. Bocsánat, édesem…I lost control of my temper. I am really, really sorry. It won’t happen again…(I hope)
Again, if my dear reader (readers?) is confused about the track of this post, I apologize. I am mainly talking to myself. I tried to write in my journal but that is taking forever as my hand hurts when I write by hand for a long time.
The truth may piss you off at first, but you will become much better after that. – Catalina-isms, June 2014