for the past 3 days, i have lived on nothing but oatmeal, dry crackers, green tea, jasmine tea and gatorade.
monday: i woke up feeling light-headed. i was nauseous for the whole day, kinda like how a preggy woman might feel in the morning. so i was kidding anyone who would listen, “maybe i really got pregnant!” i was telling people i saw gackt sunday night on nhk and i couldn’t sleep after that. then the following morning, i started feeling like a pregnant woman; gackt got me pregnant!! and i just saw him on tv! heehee. so gevy and i started talking about pregnancy and gackt and teru…for the nth time. anyway, i tried eating something for breakfast but i wasn’t able to finish everything. when i got home, i threw up everything i ate. eww…i went to bed right away, my tummy still uneasy.
tuesday: i was worse. the “morning sickness” was worse, and i had diarrhea so i decided to skip work in the morning. then i realized i had so much work to do so i went to the office after lunch. i wasn’t any better but i had to push myself…
wednesday: i found out i wasn’t pregnant after all…:P oh, well…gackt and i will try again next time. ^_^ at this point, you might be thinking i have probably spat out my brain accidentally with my breakfast 2 days ago. ask me if i care. ^_^
today: oatmeal for breakfast. bananas for lunch. nothing for dinner. or probably tea.
here i go again…
my fingers are itching again…it’s like, i must click the “add to cart” button…argh! now i wanted to get that new single from l’arc~en~ciel, 瞳の住人 (hitomi no jyuunin). it comes with a ken, yukihiro, and tetsu versions of “ready, steady, go”. >_< i have to get it, i have to get it, i have to get it…that single, and gackt’s autobiography…
which means…
i will have to use my credit card again…spank me, mom! i really have to stop this “online shopping” addiction.
or which means…
i have to get a higher paying job. speaking of which, i actually got a call from a head hunter yesterday and she was telling me of a job which pays more than twice my current salary. of course, i was tempted to take it. imagine, if i get that much money every month, i can buy all the gackt, laruku, blah-blah stuff that i want! but reality check. if i take that job, how will it impact on my future career plans? i mean, if i were to quit my present job, i would want to get another job that will make use of my college degree (economics) or my japanese language skill, or both. sad to say, the high-paying job neither makes use of both.
which means…
i might have to politely decline invitations for interviews with the company.
which means…
karren, my dear friend from high school who is currently working for the head hunter organization, will be disappointed with me. after all, i did send her my cv for consideration. but will i make the same mistake again? will i go into another job only to dislike it so much in the end?
no, sir. i have drawn my career map and i am 100% sure where i want to go. i am still planning how to get there but i am very clear on what i want. ritchelle and i talked about it yesterday, and it seems we both want the same things. good for me! (and her, i hope) i am embarking on an ambitious career path and it’s good that i have someone to share the challenges with me…not to compete against, but to cooperate with…to provide mutual support. ^_^